Freedom...

...Janis Joplin said it's just another word for "nothin' left to lose." I define it as not givin' a flyin' fuck. The opposite of love isn't hate, it's apathy. I've been struggling to process a recent betrayal. I've suffered from intense anger, hatred and resentment. See my Fear and Loathing post, on, of all things, Valentine's day.

After my Chakra Cleansing and lots of soul-searching, I'm much closer to apathy. I want to say I don't give a shit. And mostly, I don't.

Little sis said the most profound thing to me. She said, "Carol, you're giving her control." Truer words were never spoken.

So that's why I've decided to post real pictures of The D, and me and Daph (who's real name is Deb, by the way.) I'm trying not to be afraid the evil one will sue me. So I won't mention her real name or address or phone number. Thinking of posting her social security number on FaceBook, though. Just kidding. Kinda.

So here's what I'd like to say to her: "So sue me." The Jewish version of "Fuck you."

So much to tell, but I'm fading fast. Quick update. Great meeting with prospective biotech CEO. He's a hard-ass, but that's a good thing in my book. We talked an entire hour before he bolted. I figure most of his interviews last about ten minutes. I think I exuded the right mix of confidence, intelligence and irreverance. He told me I was blunt, so he'd be blunt. I took that as a compliment. His blunt question was why he should hire me. I won't bore you with the details, except to say I told him he'd be lucky to have me, in so many words. And I believe that.

The proof is in the pudding, though. And the pudding is headed to the beach for the entire month of March. Just as well. I'm pretty booked up. Still, I hope it works. I think it'll be fun.